21 July 2008

Earth-shattering kaboom?

So, there's a whole lot of things at work that are pissing me off right now. There are rumours flying about the health department going to a 4-day work week, but none of the administration is giving us any indication of how -- or when -- this will be implemented. Typical. There's a metric ton of passive-aggressive garbage coming down from IT regarding a new system we've been trying to get since 2/07 - and the hardware is in IT, has been since May, but they just "can't find the time" to install it. There are serious communication issues between one of the clinics and the pharmacy that make it difficult to do our job properly.

But the straw that broke the camel's back was an adjustment on my paycheck that cut my pay without telling me. Yes, it's stupid, and, yes, they've corrected it on this paycheck, but it's a sign of how stupid county government is. And how they just fuck you over unless you fine-toothed-comb everything they send you.

So I searched around the web at some places in RTP for jobs that use my skillset, and I found one that I'd seen in a lackadaisical search a week earlier at a place a friend of mine works. So I spent last Friday working on my resume & a cover letter, then refined it over a week, and I submitted it on Saturday.

I haven't mentioned it to anyone here yet. I rather dread doing so, and I'm preferring to put it off until, say, they call me and want an interview. Because if they don't even want to talk to me for this position, I won't cause undue alarm in my current place of employ. Even as I feel guilty for leaving here, and leaving them short staffed without a backup plan [which is another thing about this place that pisses me off], in order to do something so self-centered as to put my own career ahead of my coworkers.

Also, I'm too young to be stuck in this shitty dead-end job. There's nowhere for me to go, except manager, and I don't want that. I've tried to come up with value-added services I can provide to the clinics, but nothing ever comes of it. I want a career, dammit, not a job. I don't want to be stuck in this rut until retirement. The whole environment of this place disallows excellence, quashes ambition, and fosters mediocrity at best.

If it sounds like I'm collecting a list of grievances, so be it. I'm going to have to give an exit interview with HR or someone, and I'm collecting my thoughts, so they can be in order when I have to give them.

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